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[She hugs Allura back and closes her eyes, both exhausted and grateful for the support. She took a deep breath and actually smiled.]

It's alright, Allura. I'm not upset by it. I don't know what the future holds, not entirely, but I'm not scared. I'm not even upset. I may not have chosen this but I chose to keep going and that will always be my choice.

[A soft nod. She knows that all too well too. It's waking up to find all you have left of your home are your castle, your advisor, and some mice that stowed away with you. That the rest of the universe has been enslaved, and now those forces are literally on your doorstep, and all your hope rests in five long-forgotten weapons and five strangers around your age. Even with all the pain she's gone through... if she had to make that choice again, she would. It might be harder, but every bit of good they've done for the universe is worth it. And she knows Sailor Moon- that USAGI- will do just as much good for hers.]

It always is. [She tightens her hug.] And at least we don't have to follow through that choice alone.

Mnn! And thankfully, I'm surrounded by so many bright, dazzling stars.

[And having them ripped away from her causes a chasm in her chest. She hugs Allura back just as tight and closes her eyes.]

I think... that's where my mother struggled most. She loved me, but she didn't have friends, she didn't have someone to love like I love Mamoru or the girls or you and Sora. Her love was for me and me alone...

She loved Earth, but in a distant way...

And I think... that's why she did everything she could to surround me with love, so that I wouldn't suffer the same way she must have.

Mm, that is a shame.

[Even after her on mother died, Alfor still had Coran and the other four paladins for friends.]

I'm glad you two were so close, at least. She was a good mother; that's even harder to balance when you're royalty.

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Ha, don't I know it. [She rubbed her face.] Seems I'm... not the greatest mother myself when I become queen. Or at least, the current me of the future isn't... wasn't... ugh I don't know, time travel makes everything difficult.

I can imagine. It's not quite the same, but during my last visit home, we went into another reality. It was... interesting.

[Terrifying, too, and she's actually REALLY glad she never met her other self there, among other things.]

I don't... know if you got to meet her, actually, but my daughter from the future was here. And she actually lives with me back home for a few years too. I'm training her to be the next Sailor Moon since once I become queen I lose my ability to be a senshi. [~~Until she becomes Sailor Cosmos, whenever that is.~~]

And... I dunno, it just seems like a mess. I'm a mess... that seems to be the case in every timeline.

You're not a mess, Usagi. I think you have a lot of history and responsibility on your shoulders. It's never easy, even overwhelming at times. And there are some responsibilities or memories that we can't put down no matter where we are. But at least here, for a little while, you don't need to be Cosmos attracting Chaos, or the future queen of Earth or its moon. And when things become overwhelming, while we're here at least, we can help you. And we'll be glad to help.

You said your daughter was here for a while? [Sounds a bit like Snow White and Apple, funny enough.] How do you two get along in your present?

More like sisters than parent and child... She pretty much saw me as separate from my future self, which is fine since if you ask her, I'm perfect as queen and mother. [Cause THAT'S not a ridiculous burden to have to carry and live up to or anything.]

But we... what's the word, squabble? We squabble like siblings.

Is that a bad thing?

[Allura is an only child, and surprisingly the people she knows here who have siblings either don't talk about them much or get along with them crazy well.]

Hmm? Oh, no, not bad at all. She's actually a really sweet girl and very smart too, definitely smarter than me. She gets it from Mamo-chan.

[A soft nod.] I see. She probably gets some of it from you too, of course.

I doubt it. Trust me, it's all from Mamo-chan.

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